Friday, October 08, 2010

A little cheese with my whine

I have no right to complain, especially considering the week my friend Pam has had with her son Jack. He's been in and out of Children's with a strange diagnosis that could go on for months. We've been praying for them, and I'm thankful that some of Pam's family from England arrived yesterday.

But over here, we aren't sleeping much. And that makes everything seem harder than it is. More painful, more draining, more dramatic, and more hopeless. Oh, gosh. I am tired.

There are several factors: we all have stuffy noses, most notably Luke, who has no coping skills for such a thing. Also, as I mentioned, Luke has started rolling and scooting all over the crib, making his swaddling blanket a joke at this point. We finally ditched it all together, and he's learning to soothe himself by rolling around and trying to find his thumb. He's doing ok falling asleep, but then he wakes every 2-3 hours like a newborn and demands to be fed.

His crying several times in the night has been disturbing the Olders, especially David. He cut one of his sucking fingers this week and cannot stand to suck on it. That means he can't soothe himself, and that makes him miserable. He's been waking several times in the night, refusing to nap during the day, and getting up at 5:30am. And he's my easy kid.

And what is up with October? I remember that last October was miserable - everyone (not just our family) was SO SICK. I took a positive pregnancy test and the next morning I could not get out of bed. It was during the H1N1 frenzy, and I was SCARED. And looking back, I actually think our whole family had it. And also the stomach flu. I remember that because I thought it was morning sickness and I thought I was going to have to be hospitalized if this level of nausea continued for months.

But the weather is beautiful and I have a great life. Great family, great friends, great community, wonderful school. I'm thinking of starting a gratitude journal (straight out of Oprah '96) to try to appreciate how I have been blessed. It's just been a hard week.


Pam said...

Thanks for the mention. Things are not so mental here now. Phew.
I hope you get some sleep soon - that's rough! If you need some company in the next few days give me a call - maybe we can get together at our house this time and get burgers or something?

bluedaisy said...

Lack of sleep is complete justification for a little whine (and oh yeah, WINE). In my humble opinion, lamenting about the struggles in life does not compromise your gratitude for all the good stuff. I haven't been sleeping well (my own fault) and it is truly miserable. Here's to life getting a little easier in your neck of the woods--and a lot more restful :)